It's been a while...
hehe, it's been a while since I publish my last post, which is made under a very unusual circumstances, at my .NET lab. LOL. Get a picture of wut kinda student I am?? You sure have!!Okay, my life... still the same, not so intresting... Wait... My life actually becoming kinda intresting lately.. Cuz I'm turning into a freak these couple of weeks.... Yupp, that's rite, don't blame your eyes. I'm turning into a freak.. What kinda freak??? I'm a Jesus freak!!! How cool is that?? Yeah!!! I'm so excited about it, that when people tells me, wut happen to you, linkie? You're different, you're kinda... umm.. freak!!!
YEAH!! And I'm lovin it!! Hehehe. Cuz, that means they notice the differences... I mean, I'm trying to be a new person, now that my Jesus lives in me.. I mean, come on, when you guys fell in love so deeply with a person, you let that person came in to your life, and whether you like or not, you realize it or not, you're changing!! That's because of the influence from that oh-so-called-the-love-of-your-life person. Got it?? That's exactly what's happening to me. He's not just changing me, I'm forcing myself to change. Huahuahua. Get how much I love Him?? I'm just so excited. Oh yeah, and I've just had myself batised last sunday. hehehehe. Cool huh?
Oh yeah, and a brief update regarding my oh-so-strange attraction to a certain male human being that I've told you guys on my last post *forgot which one*. I've succeeded to get rid of that silly feeling. No, seriously... It's not that I try hard and try hard to get rid of him outta my mind, I just feel that the attraction is silly.. Huahuaua, I don't even like that person... Well, I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I'm kinda disgusted?? no.. not that extreme, I just simply don't like that person.. Hm.... Well, my best mate once told me when I tell him my sudden attraction to that male object :p, that I shouldn't worry a thing about it, because our lovely God will take care of it *my mate is christian too anyway*. He has made a glorifying plan for each and every single one of us, that we shall not worry about anything, including this soulmate thing. huahuahuahua. So yeah, I just pray, and ask God to get rid of him outta my mind if what I was feeling that time wasn't from Him.. So yeah, after a few weeks, he vanished outta my mind... Just vanish, as simple as that. Awesome huh, how my God handles my problem?? Huehuehue. Well, it's not really as simple as that... cuz at that time when I fallen for that guy, or whe I thought I've fallen for him, I was only at the beginning of knowing my God, and I put more concern about thig guy, rather than to my Jesus. I know that's a problem, that's not rite... Cuz he's started to distract me from my God, and by that time, I can hardly distinguish whether my passion for going to the church was because I want to communicate with my God, or to meet Him.. Get that??
I'm NOT blaming this person. 'Cuz you're wrong if you thought that christianity doesn't let people to fall in love with other person, other than to God. It's not like that, indeed christianity teach about loving others like you love you God, and like you love yourself.
Ok, in my case, it is me who make the decision *as suggested by my friend*. I made this decision to put my priority in knowing my God more, I just want to know Him more and more, and I don't wanna distracted by those fall in love with a guy process. Cuz when you're falling for someone, or intrested to someone, you'll want to know that someone more. You want to know each and every single details about that person, that others don't know, and maybe his mother doesn't know either. LOL, and you'll start to think about a lot of things. Does he likes me like the way I like him? or maybe even worse, does he loves me like the way I love him? What does he think about me? Does we have the chance to be together? Is he for real?? LOL. AND you will also start to build this kinda paranoia around you, when you see him talking with other girl, you might think, Oh my, he must be in love with that girl!! LOL or it may even leads you to become a conceited person, you'll begin to judging other girls around him, and you'll start to compare yourself with them. There are two possible outcome in this situation, you might end up thinking you're less superior than those gals, you may end up in feeling bad about yourself, or you may end up feeling superior, and you may take a step further to arrogancy... Now that's my friend, is a problem, and there's 90% chance that you'll face that kinda problem, if what you're feeling that time is not from God... Ok, I know I'm a lil bit exaggerating..... But that's the way I like it. Huahuahauhua. Just correct me if I'm wrong. ^^
Yup, and when I realize those things, I want to focus on knowing my God, again it's my decision, and I just don't want to be distracted by those love things.... Know your God, know Him deeply, and I'm sure that the process of knowing someone that you attracted to will be a lot more easier ^^
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 3:14 PM
