September 28, 2005
It's been a while...
hehe, it's been a while since I publish my last post, which is made under a very unusual circumstances, at my .NET lab. LOL. Get a picture of wut kinda student I am?? You sure have!! Okay, my life... still the same, not so intresting... Wait... My life actually becoming kinda intresting lately.. Cuz I'm turning into a freak these couple of weeks.... Yupp, that's rite, don't blame your eyes. I'm turning into a freak.. What kinda freak??? I'm a Jesus freak!!! How cool is that?? Yeah!!! I'm so excited about it, that when people tells me, wut happen to you, linkie? You're different, you're kinda... umm.. freak!!! YEAH!! And I'm lovin it!! Hehehe. Cuz, that means they notice the differences... I mean, I'm trying to be a new person, now that my Jesus lives in me.. I mean, come on, when you guys fell in love so deeply with a person, you let that person came in to your life, and whether you like or not, you realize it or not, you're changing!! That's because of the influence from that oh-so-called-the-love-of-your-life person. Got it?? That's exactly what's happening to me. He's not just changing me, I'm forcing myself to change. Huahuahua. Get how much I love Him?? I'm just so excited. Oh yeah, and I've just had myself batised last sunday. hehehehe. Cool huh? Oh yeah, and a brief update regarding my oh-so-strange attraction to a certain male human being that I've told you guys on my last post *forgot which one*. I've succeeded to get rid of that silly feeling. No, seriously... It's not that I try hard and try hard to get rid of him outta my mind, I just feel that the attraction is silly.. Huahuaua, I don't even like that person... Well, I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I'm kinda disgusted?? no.. not that extreme, I just simply don't like that person.. Hm.... Well, my best mate once told me when I tell him my sudden attraction to that male object :p, that I shouldn't worry a thing about it, because our lovely God will take care of it *my mate is christian too anyway*. He has made a glorifying plan for each and every single one of us, that we shall not worry about anything, including this soulmate thing. huahuahuahua. So yeah, I just pray, and ask God to get rid of him outta my mind if what I was feeling that time wasn't from Him.. So yeah, after a few weeks, he vanished outta my mind... Just vanish, as simple as that. Awesome huh, how my God handles my problem?? Huehuehue. Well, it's not really as simple as that... cuz at that time when I fallen for that guy, or whe I thought I've fallen for him, I was only at the beginning of knowing my God, and I put more concern about thig guy, rather than to my Jesus. I know that's a problem, that's not rite... Cuz he's started to distract me from my God, and by that time, I can hardly distinguish whether my passion for going to the church was because I want to communicate with my God, or to meet Him.. Get that?? I'm NOT blaming this person. 'Cuz you're wrong if you thought that christianity doesn't let people to fall in love with other person, other than to God. It's not like that, indeed christianity teach about loving others like you love you God, and like you love yourself. Ok, in my case, it is me who make the decision *as suggested by my friend*. I made this decision to put my priority in knowing my God more, I just want to know Him more and more, and I don't wanna distracted by those fall in love with a guy process. Cuz when you're falling for someone, or intrested to someone, you'll want to know that someone more. You want to know each and every single details about that person, that others don't know, and maybe his mother doesn't know either. LOL, and you'll start to think about a lot of things. Does he likes me like the way I like him? or maybe even worse, does he loves me like the way I love him? What does he think about me? Does we have the chance to be together? Is he for real?? LOL. AND you will also start to build this kinda paranoia around you, when you see him talking with other girl, you might think, Oh my, he must be in love with that girl!! LOL or it may even leads you to become a conceited person, you'll begin to judging other girls around him, and you'll start to compare yourself with them. There are two possible outcome in this situation, you might end up thinking you're less superior than those gals, you may end up in feeling bad about yourself, or you may end up feeling superior, and you may take a step further to arrogancy... Now that's my friend, is a problem, and there's 90% chance that you'll face that kinda problem, if what you're feeling that time is not from God... Ok, I know I'm a lil bit exaggerating..... But that's the way I like it. Huahuahauhua. Just correct me if I'm wrong. ^^ Yup, and when I realize those things, I want to focus on knowing my God, again it's my decision, and I just don't want to be distracted by those love things.... Know your God, know Him deeply, and I'm sure that the process of knowing someone that you attracted to will be a lot more easier ^^
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 3:14 PM
 
September 01, 2005
Captain is calling... from the lab
Lolz, here I am in the middle of my ASP.NET lab, typing this what-so-important-about-this blog thingy... Wait... don't you dare to judge me yet, I'm not that kinda stupid, silly, lazy person who only browse when it comes to lab time *though the lazy part is true :p*. I can not get my .NET VMware working -_- Next time I should remember not to get the same workstation again... Cuz this happened to me last week, and now it's happening again.... Arghhhhhh.... Kay, gotta go to the tute, hehehehe.... Anyway, before I go, I just want everybody who has been reading my stupid blog (and I know there's not that many people) that I'm currently on the stage of trying to invent a better me.. not really invent...hehhe. It's just, I want to be a better person, I want to be a blessing for everybody's around me, just like some people that I know. I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've made, all of my almost too rude, straight forward, to the point words that might have hurt you heart. Guys, whatever it is, either I'm serious or just joking *mostly joking*, I'm sorry for that. I hope you guys can forgive me for every bad things I've done to each and every single one of you. I started to feel really bad about myself when this evening at the break of one of my lecture, I try to settle some mizundastood with one of my friends. I said something horrible (though I was only joking, but that friend took it seriously), and it seems like I've been using lots and lots of horrible vocabs when I was joking with that friend (sigh, I'm not all that oh-so-sweet girl). Though honestly I thikn that this missunderstanding has come so far to this point partly because that friend is a pretty "sensitive" person, cuz it happens that this friend has been taking all of my jokes seriously, and yeah, so I've been investing to the development of such a negative emotion within this friend. Even so, whatever it is, I'm so sorry..., sorry I can't turn back time and undo those pilling up stack of hate, but this one thing for sure, I'm really" sorry and I promise I'll try not to be like that again. Though sometimes it will hard to not to be so straight forward , if I feel the urge to really throw out some intervention or mostly, jokes, I promise I'll choose a better vocab :p. God bless you all. Cheers, the oh-not-so-stupid gal PS: Thankz to my lovely Jesus, you make me see all of my rudeness, love You heapz.
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 8:23 PM
August 28, 2005
You're so hypnotic on my heart
That was the sentence that pops up each time I get online on my msn... Now don't get me wrong, my first intention of putting those oh-so-melankolic sentence as my nick is because I want my friends to keep on guessing whether I was fallin in lophe or not.. and it works!!! lots and lots of friends was asking.. nah, I'm doing it to hide the truth that I'm actually incapable of fallin in love again... I think... I was once got my heart broken, broken so badly, that I can not gather all the complete pieces to stand again... I might be alrite, or looks alrite rite now... but I know somehow I'm still aching.. I can never fall in love again, I got hurt so bad that I was afraid to fall again, and this is what's happening to me.. I only know this person, just like, few weeks, I dun even talk to him, know him well, and yet, I can't get him outta my head. yes yes, suddenly out of the blue, I'm thinking of him. I have this assignment that due tonight, and this is what I'm doing, typing my silly blog... because of my silly mind... it's not my heart, it's just a part of my cerebrum, that can't stop thinking about it. so yeah, I'm ruining my unix. I'm doomed, I'm fallin' in love, and I'm getting prepared for the worst, got my heart thrwon to a colony og great white shark. Sweet.. Cheers, the-stupid-gal
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 11:50 PM
July 31, 2005
just shut up if you don't like it
It's already Sunday morning (well, sorta...) and I've just realized that I've just spent my weekend staying at home, playing HK Cafe.. Well, I went to Sofia's @ Camberwell w/ my friends 4 dinners just then... but still... I have this feeling that I kinda living a you-can-say-a-pathetic-life ... I mean, come on, weekends at home... I used to have a "life" when I was still in Jakarta.. *life according my own mindset* but the thing that freaks me out the most is, I enjoy being a nerd who doesn't a have a life, staying at home on weekends.... It seriously freaks me out... lol Ok, you should have read the title of this posting.. I have sum fella shouting at my msn, email, whatever, you name it... commenting, or particularly criticizing my blog... Ok, here's the thing, I don't have any problem with you guys thinking that my blog is ridiculous, outdated, etc. etc. *particularly the layout* I know I'm know one hella talented web designers, and I didn't even attend the webpage construction class, which is kinda sad since I'm a com. sci. slash IT student... But please, please, please, can you make it sounds a bit nicer?? I mean, if you want someone to take you criticism in a positive way, you should at least try not to pissed off that person with the vocabs u're using... especially when you're criticizing someone like me... seriously, I'm an impulsive person, and believe it or not I can be very sensitive too... I'm actually kinda cursing you rite now *lol*, and I'm trying so hard, telling myself to forget this idea of pushing you to the railway, if I happen to meet you @ some station.. Let's make it simple, if you don't like my blog, then why bother wasting your super precious time checking out my blog, and reading my ridiculous, shallow, naive thoughts... Dude, blogging is way much cheaper than paying a therapyst... So, I want to write whatever I want to write... I mean, you know.. I need to get rid of some of my lunatic tendencies... and for you guys who happens to be questioning what on earth I'm trying to talk about now, you guys who knows me long enough must be familiar with my anger management problems... that's what actually happening to me... I'm pissed off!! I'm not normally behaving like this, trust me... It's just there are some factors, e.g. the person who criticize me, that sorta catalyze the process of me getting so pissed off... Well, maybe that person just wants to say some jokes, ice breaking heh?? But dude, that's not the kind of joke that can tickle my sense of humour, especially when the person saying those nasty thing is YOU... get lost!! I can do anything I want, I can write anything I want, and I can make my blog looks like whatever I want it to look like... Hah!! Sadly I can't stop you from viewing my pathetic blog... So you can come and visit my blog anytime you want to, and throwing those oh-so-sophisticated and rude comments slash critics to my face anytime you want to... but if I have another option, I'd rather see you get lost, Thank God I don't even know you well enough, hence makes me don't even like you... Well, thank you for visiting though... For you who makes me write this, if you happen to read this and you feel the urge to speak your mind *maybe another rude comments*, then speak up babe!! Just post some comments HERE or shout something on the chat box... don't you feel the need to tell other people those pathetic things about me and my blog?? Come on, safe the world and make yourself happy!!! nuff sayin' ...... catch u guys later
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 1:33 AM
July 29, 2005
dinginnnn >.< padahal tadi pagi pas gw kuar dari apt, suhu diluar tuh 17 °C ... kenapa sekarang gw berasanya dingin banget ya T_T Btw, kasih saran donk gimana caranya biar gw ga sakit"an... Eitss, bukan berarti gw penyakitan ya... Cuma, ya... itu udah 2 bulan terakhir ini gw terserang penyakit musim dingin terus"an nih, abis flu, batuk", sembuh bentar, eh udah batuk" lagi, trus idung gw udah mulai beler" gitu, tapi yg paling nyebelin yah, sebelum flu dan batuk" nya itu, pasti gw demam sama soar throuat dulu... sebel agh... Pengen istirahat, tapi mana sempettttt... Tadi aja gw kuliah nonstop dari pagi sampe malem... hik hik... Mana kelas penuh" semua... ngga beradab... Yg paling nyebelin sih Broadcast network eng. , udah dosennya aksennya ga jelas (suer, gw ga tau dia ngomong apa), trus ciwi" di belakang gw (orang indo semua pula) berisikkkk banget. Gile, kek lagi arisan aja mbak... Trus unix -_- (dan gw bener" ga tau apa" pas lab nya), trus WDT awwww... dosennya sih funky yah, mirip artis Bolywood yg namanya Govinda to sapa gitu... pokoknya kalo di filem" india jaman gw SD dulu, dia selalu jadi jagoannya... trus gelinya lagi, dosen gw itu sampe ikut"an gayanya... Duh, bajunya yg tadi ga kuku banget lagi... dia pake kemeja brokat motif bunga" warna putih (transparan), trus dia pake dalaman singlet warna item gitu... dan gw curiga, kalo itu sebenarnya bukan daleman, melainkan bulu" dada nya dia. Trusss gw heran ya, jangan" tuh dosen kaga punya bulu ketek, abis bajunya kan transparan gitu, tapi kalo dia ngangkat" tangannya gitu, gw notice tanda" keberadaan bulu ketek.. Gyahahahahhahahaha. Tapi bukan berarti gw ngeliatin keteknya mulu ya.. huahauhuaa... Aduh makkk.... Tapi oke lah, ngajarnya enak.... Tapi yg paling nyebelin adalah, dari semua kelas yg semuanya penuh" banget itu (sampe pada duduk di tangga)... kaga ada cowo yg ganteng coba.... duhh... nasib nasib, udah mau pingsan karena kehabisan udara, ga ada pemandangan bagus coba... hikz hikz... pengen pindah engineering aja, keknya keren" deh T_T..... Btw, ada yg notice ga sih, sekarang blog gw udah ada flavicon nya ^^ yayyy, itu loh, icon kecil yg suka ada di address bar, ato kalo pas lu bookmark-in website yg punya flavicon, nanti ada gambar kecilnya disebelah alamat web itu.. Penasaran?? Bookmark blog gw aja... kekekeke, nanti juga muncul.... Berhubung gw ngantuk, dan capeeee, gw mau bobo dulu ah.. Gw udah nyalain lilin aromatherapy gw.. mustinya sih wangi Rose... tapi koq agak pesing" gitu ya. Huahuahauhua... Abis ini gw mo nyalain musik, trus nanti gw mo nyalain tealights gw.. duhhh gile romantis amat.. mana dari jendela kamar gw keliatan pemandangan dockland dan eastern suburbs.. ayayayay... kalo ada cowo nih, BAH lengkap sudah..... hauhauhaua... udah ah, ngantuQ, cowo buat pelengkap tools romantis mood builder gw nanti buat kapan" aja deh. LOLz sweet dreams all.. PS: gw masih menerima uluran tangan yg mau membantu beresin layout gw loh... kekkeke, oh ya satu lagi, kalo bsk pada mau jalan, g ikut :p
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 12:44 AM
July 28, 2005
Life is sweet... as sweet as a kreme filled kookie
Just for those who don't know, the Title or the Big title, or to be exact, the name of my sweet Blog is : life is S W e e T ... as sweet as a kreme filled kOOkie
got it guyz?? rite, keep that in mind for now ^^
And here I got a cute website, ok the website itself is not that cute, but it has like 5 or 6 very very cute games... they're flash games btw.. Try it, you can act as a chef of a cafe, restaurant, bakery, and sushi bar ^^ Cute eh?? yeah, I think so too :p
www.maggiemarket.com
Enjoy them ^^
cheers.
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 12:50 AM
July 27, 2005
best viewed using firefox...
kay.. here r the updates: have changed the layout a bit... tiny winy bity changes :p have managed to put the chatbox and the counter *horrayyy*, though still need to adjust the position >.< still planning on putting a thing or two... what r those things.. haven't figured it out yet.. lolz I'm the kinda person who loves to stuff up lotza things in my blog.. The merrier the better. lol... JK mate... Relax, I'm tryin' to avoid the circumstances where people must take Panadol or Aspirin or any other painkillers, you name it, right after they visit my blog... I admit that my blog is a 'lil bit colourful ^^ Well, look at the bright side, if after you visit my blog you suddenly feel this really" bad headache or maybe feel the need to throw up *yuck*, you can at least finally use your medibank. How cool is that?? *Katie Holmes grins* Guys, gimme as many feedback as possible plzzz... and maybe for you who have the talent of designing the web, and have the heart of Princess Diana, would you please help me tidy up my blog layout.. hehe.... pleaseeeee.. ^.^ Ooh, almost forget, Best Viewed using Firefox... :pGod bless y'all Cheers....
... kreme filled by kookiexoxo at 6:17 AM
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